Trusting God's Timing

Taking an Honest Look at Myself

The process of searching for employment has been challenging, primarily because I need part-time hours, and many positions don’t align with those hours and/or my physical capabilities. I’m trying to remain hopeful though things in this arena look bleak because I can only bring home a specific amount and that is HARD to find with the available hours/payrate.

I have had to take a deep introspective look at myself, evaluating my strengths and limitations. Mentally, I know I am more than capable of handling the jobs I apply for. I have the necessary experience and skills. However, my biggest concern has always been my physical abilities. Before my accident, I never gave a second thought to walking, carrying things, lifting, or performing fine motor tasks. Now, those can be challenges I have to navigate carefully.

Walking while carrying anything over five pounds is difficult. I would have to use my walker for support for bigger loads. My dexterity and motor skills have improved, but they still require multiple attempts at times to accomplish certain tasks. Simple movements that used to be automatic now require intentional effort and thought.

And I’m just being really honest right now—because sometimes setbacks and the things I can’t do, or knowing that my past capabilities surpassed what I can do now, make me feel a little sad or even disappointed in myself. And I guess, mentally, I’m trying to navigate those feelings in a healthy way.

Despite these challenges, I refuse to let my limitations define me. Every obstacle I encounter is an opportunity for problem-solving and adaptation. Over the years, I’ve developed strategies to work around difficulties, whether that means using assistive devices, modifying my approach to tasks, or simply taking more time to complete them. I know that in a work environment, my determination and adaptability will serve me well. Employers look for problem-solvers, and I have had a lifetime of experience finding creative ways to meet my needs.

“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Philippians 4:13

Showcasing My Skills and Strengths

As I continue my job search, I’ve taken time to reflect on the skills and strengths I bring to any position. I hold a Bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education with a concentration in reading, and I have years of experience teaching in my own homeschool. This background has given me valuable skills in curriculum planning, organization, time management, and adaptability—all of which are essential in an educational or administrative setting.

I tend to be highly organized, ensuring that everything has its place—whether it’s a physical workspace or a digital database. This skill is crucial for maintaining efficiency in any professional role.

I also have strong verbal and written communication skills. I enjoy interacting with people and building a good rapport with coworkers and clients. My ability to communicate effectively allows me to work well in team environments and handle tasks that require clarity and professionalism.

In terms of technical skills, I have experience with various data entry software and other specialized programs. Additionally, I have been exploring computer coding and scripting to enhance my technical abilities further. Having a foundation in these areas can be beneficial in roles that require adaptability and a willingness to learn new technologies. Understanding my strengths has given me confidence as I take control of my job search process.

Taking Control of My Job Search

I recently made the decision to cancel the weekly meetings with my job coach. While they were initially helpful, I feel confident in my ability to navigate the job search process independently. I know what to look for, what type of work I need, and how to make informed decisions. However, I am keeping my vocational rehabilitation case open with my initial contact. We will continue correspondence through email and occasional phone calls. Closing my case entirely would require a tremendous amount of paperwork if I ever wanted to reopen it. Additionally, my counselor mentioned a few other helpful resources that my case might allow for in the future. Ultimately, I will be handling job applications and interviews on my own, and I feel ready to take that step.

I was deeply conflicted about whether or not I should eliminate job coaching and the weekly maintenance meetings. I greatly appreciated my job coach’s effort, time, and involvement in my unique situation. However, I ultimately felt like the meetings became more of a burden than an aid. Now that I fully understand what is required for my employment search, I am ready to move forward on my own terms. Even though I felt conflicted, I truly feel at peace with my decision. I know it was the right move for me. Although this step is scary, I trust that the Lord knows all things. This is a moment for me to embrace the journey ahead with faith and confidence.

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”  2 Timothy 1:7

I am currently looking for positions that align with my background in administrative, clerical, or educational settings. These fields fit well with my skill set, but I am also open to new opportunities. I am a fast learner and can be an asset even when faced with unfamiliar software or tasks. I know that adaptability is key, and I am prepared to step into a role where I can grow and contribute effectively.

Preparing for My Interview

When I received the opportunity to interview for a position, I made sure to research the company thoroughly. I visited their website, read about their mission statement and values, and considered whether they aligned with my own beliefs. Understanding a company’s core values helps determine whether it’s the right fit for me.

I also prepared for common interview questions by reading articles and watching videos on effective interview techniques. This helped me practice my responses and anticipate potential questions. Additionally, I reminded myself that an interview is not just about the employer evaluating me—it’s also an opportunity for me to assess whether the company is the right place for me. Asking thoughtful questions allows me to gain insight into their work culture and expectations.

Trusting in God’s Guidance

Before my interview, I prayed and asked the Lord for guidance, wisdom, and peace. I wanted to feel calm and confident, knowing that whatever the outcome, He is in control. The Bible reminds me:

“Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”  1 Peter 5:7

By leaning on my faith, I was able to walk into the interview with a sense of peace. No matter what happens, I trust that the right opportunity will come at the right time.

Overcoming Self-Doubt and Perception

Another challenge I’ve considered is how others perceive me in a professional setting. If I had a choice, I would prefer an initial video interview rather than an in-person one. I know that people, even unconsciously, make judgments based on appearance and mobility. Walking into an interview with my walker—something I don’t always need—may lead to assumptions about my abilities before I even have a chance to speak. That is a difficult reality to navigate mentally. Looking at yourself critically and acknowledging perceived flaws is never easy. I know that this mindset is something I need to overcome, but I also want to be honest about my struggles.

Recently, I actually had my first job interview, which stirred up some anxiety—not just about the interview itself but about physically navigating the space. As much as people try not to cast judgment, sometimes it happens unconsciously. That thought weighed on me, but I pushed through. The experience taught me a lot about what to do and what not to do in such situations, and despite my nerves, I felt a sense of accomplishment just for getting through it.

“Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.”  Proverbs 16:3

Upon leaving the interview, I was given some paperwork that made me think I might be moving forward in the hiring process. However, I wasn’t completely sure. I prayed specifically for a clear-cut answer, asking God to show me whether this door was open or closed. The next morning, I received an email with my definitive answer—the door was closed. Instead of feeling discouraged, I felt peace. I knew I could trust God’s plan.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

This journey is not just about finding a job—it is about refining my faith, strengthening my resilience, and preparing for the next chapter that God has for me. I know that He is with me in every step, and I am confident that the right door will open at the right time. Until then, I will continue pressing forward, knowing that He is guiding me.

This journey has not been easy, but I know that each step is part of God’s greater plan. As I continue my job search, I will walk in faith, trusting that He will place me exactly where I need to be. I am learning, growing, and preparing for the right opportunity—and I know that in His perfect timing, the door will open.

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